I'll never forget yesterday.

I'm not afraid of death. It's the stake one puts up in order to play the game of life. Some people are so afraid to die, they never begin to live. Or at least I thought so. You miss the person most when they're gone I guess.

I'm not particularly worried for geography. Definitely terrified for maths. I want to take on the express syllabus next year but I've got a grave feeling that I won't be able to make it there. I think I'm going to put all my hope on luck again. That's not right, isn't it?

Ma was so happy that I gave her the flowers yesterday because she never expected that I'd give her nicely decorated ones. For a moment there, she was like a little girl receiving a barbie doll house playset. Flowers are a little bit cliche don't you think? But flowers have been around forever! They are, still, going to make perfect gifts for anyone on any special occaisions. I would love to receive a humongous bouquet of flowers of every kind of breed in the world. Oh yeah, and I bought a coffee roll cake from Bengawan Solo for my grandmother too, a favour from Auntie Dorris.

I wonder what was Yunqian's mum reaction when she received her big and everlasting (fake) pink stalk of flower? "Aiya, I don't like it lah! Throw it away! Throw it away!!!" Lol.

I've started playing Restaurant City on Facebook two days ago. I didn't turn off my computer last night and the game was running the whole time. My workers went dead and my restaurant popularity went down to zero. No fair! I'm level 11 now though, that's the great part.

Tomorrow is the funeral day. I'm stuck between seeing my grandmother for the last time, or to go to school and make use of the good time to study for my examinations. If I were to skip school, it sucks when you miss out on the crucial lessons that could really help for the examinations and change my life for the next three years in secondary school. But the funeral? Its too personal. This sense of remorse that is definitely going to kick in when I skip the most important day of her life is going to make me go nuts, and I probably cry till I am never going to stop. I love my grandmother even though I may show no signs of affection towards her, you know? I think, I'm asking the obvious.

Heri Kustanto, my best, best mate, you're the greatest friend anyone could have. :-)

My grandmother passed away this morning.
No words can define the way I feel right now.

English composition was a horror!!! Do you know that I was only left with fifteen minutes to spare but I didn't even come near to the main plot of the story? Of course you don't know! I should have write write about an unforgettable day in school rather than write a story about greed and punishment and put a title because, number one, I didn't put any title because it completely slipped off my mind like a whole bottle of detergent spilled onto the ice skating rink floor. Number two, it sounded very unrealistic. From a pampered and rich boy to richest family in the world to a 10th storey high castle to dangerous nuclear weapons to an inferno in the house. At least it sounded interesting, but! Number three, I didn't finish it. In the end, I decided to cut away the good parts and said that the man who burned the house was mentally sick in the head. But the real plan was to get his family's wealth and get to be a villian like Mojojo. You get it right? Destroy townsville, create bioweapons...

Actually, I had three good minutes before time was up. But Chua Quee Sing collected the paper even before it was time. Asshole. I think I'm going to ruin my chances for getting highest for english in the whole level (cheh) and not get a twenty bucks popular voucher. It would be a proud achievement though, like what happened earlier this year. I feel so pathetic.

And what do you do when you feel that way?
Meet your bestest friends in the world!

Right after the examinations, I spent the rest of the afternoon with Yunqian and Vivian. And there are quite a number of pictures we took on my webcam. Photobucket can't locate the pictures, so I'm using the blogger's.





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Since Mothers' Day is approaching, I have already ordered a small bouquet of flowers for my Mama. Just a small one, nothing fanciful about it. I remember that there was one time where I made roses out of tissue papers and gave it to my mum. But she didn't want it because she only wanted real ones. Since it wouldn't hurt to just spend green papers on something she likes, then why not?

I played pool with Grace and Abegail today. Initially, it was a movie date but we had some change of plans since it was already late.
Read it from Jumping Grace's blog! (Wobbles battock)

Tomorrow's MYE. Nervewrecking!

I went bowling with Grace, Chen Wei and Brandon early in the morning today. I met Grace at the Boon Lay interchange before we took 240 to the superbowl. And being my first time playing bowling, some things didn't turn out well at all that turned out to be really funny and awkward. Chen Wei kept competiting with me (and cursing) because it was either me or him who has the lowest score, since it was his first time too.
After three games, we stopped and paid what's neccessary. Then I spotted some gaming machines along a corridor, and I was drawn to it. And yes, there was it, a game that I've been dedicating myself onto for the past few years, Drum Mania, lol. I played it three times only before I moved on to another two more games with Grace. You know the game where there's the three buttons coloured in red, blue and green and you had to hit it accordingly? And another similar game like that where you have to use two joysticks? Yeah, those two funny games. I had a time of my life playing them.

My parents came and picked me up from Macdonalds and we went to visit my grandmother again. Her condition seems to be deteriorating a lot. Sigh.

My parents bought me a new Acer mini notebook (due to that incredible stroke of luck) and well, probably twelve days from now, the internet connection back home will be restored after a year. I won't have to go to the community centre and spend $1.50 just to play for an hour anymore. You can say that I'm back, for good.

Eh-hem, Howie May has been revived!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I've been studying hard for my mid year examinations. My maths was one of my worst subjects (other than chinese) during my primary school days. I never expected myself to be in a math class now. But do you know what will really be my biggest achievement ever? Hopefully, I get to opt for the express syllabus next year!

And talk about english. Chong Fong Peng doesn't even bother whether we listen to her or not. She write things on the board that doesn't make the slightest sense, throws worksheet at us as if we knew what we're learning, marks it like nobody's business and throw it back to us. Her voice isn't even reaching out to the person right in front of her, even with the microphone. Let me chant that for you. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone. Microphone!!! How could you not talk louder with a microphone?!

But! I still want to get 80 for maths and 85 for english.

And I miss band practises.